The thing about Karma is that it’s like a chocolate filled pastry. It has such a sweet taste, so sweet it would give you cavities. Although I don’t wish any harmful experiences on anyone, I have had the pleasure of seeing my own brother deal with karma.

As some of you might know, whenever I had anxiety in public places, my brother would always get upset and make comments. He would say stuff like “Stop it! Stop acting like that!” Or “Mom, make her stop! It’s embarrassing!”. At the time I would feel unseen, like my feelings weren’t something to be acknowledged. I tried to explain that it was something I couldn’t control, but it didn’t matter because he didn’t understand either way. Someone who knew nothing about it would never understand. I honestly couldn’t blame him, if I was in his shoes I would feel the same way. 

Around a year ago, my brother started complaining about a pain in his arm. He felt as though he was losing feeling in his arm. My mom assured him that he was fine, but he was adamant that he had to be seen by a doctor. From there it went to other different pains in his body. After multiple visits to the clinic, nothing was found. 

My mom insisted that it was probably anxiety that he was feeling. He would always say “How can this be anxiety if I feel it? It’s real!” He continued to go to the doctor for other issues he claimed were “real” but ultimately nothing was ever found. I believe that my mom allowed him to spend all this money on urgent care because she knew that his anxiety would never cease until he heard from professionals that he was fine.

Eventually he came to accept that he was suffering from anxiety. My mom explained to him what it was, and how he could cope with it. He was lucky as he was able to endure it so much better than I ever could. I say it was karma because it seemed to be a one time thing for him. Even though I felt sad that my brother was hurting, the whole situation was bittersweet. He was able to walk in my shoes, which helped him be more sympathetic towards me and others that suffer from anxiety. 

Karma is a b!tch!! 😉

Forever and Always, Anxieteen;